On page 89, the beginning of Chapter 4, Engel describes the after-effects of the bomb that went off just outside his hotel room at the Hamra Hotel in Baghdad. He describes the video journal he's keeping and turns the video on himself, rather than on the destruction. Why does he do this? What is he documenting? Aren't journalists supposed to be document the world around them? What does this tell us about Engel's emotional/physical state? What does this tell us about the dangers war-time journalists encounter? Then look at the different stages he describes on page 91: Stage 1: Superman, Stage 2: aware that things are dangerous, Stage 3: probability is working against you, Stage 4: death here is inevitable. How does Engel grapple with these stages? How does he depict his state of mind? What implications does this have for others who might later suffer from PTSD?